ABANDONING THIS SUBSTACK

THE MISSION NEEDS ME MORE

I WANTED TO SAY THANKS FOR YOUR TIME AND ATTENTION. I’M WASTED ONLINE AND AM OF NO USE TO ANYONE AS AN ARTIST OR WRITER (I’M JUST ENTERTAINMENT DISTRACTING YOU FROM WHO’S NEXT TO YOU IN PERSON), AND I CANNOT DO WHAT I DO FOR FUN ANYMORE, AND I DON’T WANT TO MAKE A LIVING BY BEGGING FOR CASH LIKE WE’RE ALL RELEGATED TO DOING ONLINE. EVEN RICH FOLKS SET UP GOFUND ME’S ON A WHIM. I HATE BEGGING ASKING PITCHING SELLING ANYTHING. I’D RATHER BITE HANDS THAN PASS HATS WITH SAD EYES. ART IS ON THE ROCKS. ITS REASON IS LOST. LIKE MY HOME TOWN FOR NOW SAN FRANCISCO IS FULL OF SERVANTS AND SLAVES AND IT’S SPREADING FAST. YOU’LL SEE IF YOU DON’T ALREADY KNOW. EVERYONE’S A WHORE. EVEN THE WARRIORS, WHEN THE CHOICE USED TO BE ONE OR THE OTHER. I USED TO DANCE OUTSIDE TO HIP HOP ON MY EARPHONES OR ON A LOUD SPEAKER LIKE I USED TO SEE IN THE BRONX BUT NOW THAT MY KNEE IS PRETTY SHOT I’VE BEGUN SINGING ON THE STREETS PASSING ON MY BICYCLE, OR SERENADING BELOVEDS, IN MY BLUES. YOU CANNOT GET THIS OR ME ONLINE AND THAT’S AS IT SHOULD BE. I TRIED TO SHARE WHAT I DO WHAT I GIVE WHAT I MAKE BUT IT’S NOT NEEDED OR IMPORTANT OR EVEN UNDERSTOOD. SO I’M RETURNING TO MY PERSONAL SECRET WORLD OF TAKING CARE OF MY JAMES AND THE FEW FRIENDS SO THAT I MAY BUILD SOMETHING RELEVANT AND REAL IN THE REAL. THANKS FOR YOUR TIME AND BEST OF LUCK. X - KITTEN LOPEZ/KITTEN IS WHO I REALLY AM IN THE REAL. IT SEEMS A SILLY NAME BUT IT IS ME NOW THAT I’VE LONG SINCE WHORED MY REAL TRUE BIRTH NAME ON THE INNERNET. OH AND MY BELIEF IN GOD WAS WAIVERING BUT WE’RE FINDING SAN FRANCISCO ANGELS IN THE REAL. THE SO-CALLED GOOD PEOPLE ARE GOOD ONLY THEY DON’T SEEM TO KNOW IT. THAT’S WHY THEY’VE BEEN COMPLETE DICKS THESE PAST FEW YEARS. AH…THE ART OF THE MIND FUCK… US FERAL MUST FIND EACH OTHER IN THE REAL. THE INNERNET HAS NO LANGUAGE FOR US AND CANNOT TRANSMIT ARE REAL TRUE LIFE MAGIC. ONLY EYES CAN. GOOD BYE AND GODSPEED YOU ALL! THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME/ATTENTION. NOW GO LOVE SOMEONE IN THE REAL AND YOU WON’T BE THE SUCKER BECAUSE EVERYONE’S TOO BROKEN TO PROPERLY PUNK YOU. LOVE IS DEFIANT. IT’S HOW YOU WIN. FIGHT LIKE YOU HAVE TO SLEEP TOGETHER IN THE SAME BED BECAUSE WE ALL CURRENTLY ARE. X / K-LO